I’m over a half century old-an antique! During these 50+ years, I have learned a few things…
I have learned:
That life is best lived one moment at a time.
That things don’t always turn out like you thought- good or bad.
That some folks will change, and some will not,
And I am not in control of either.
That some people will come and others will go
And they all will/have taught me something.
That it’s good to have goals and dreams
And that some will support me and others won’t…
And that’s okay.
That time really does go faster as I get older
Or at least my perception of it does.
That children grow up fast
And they turned out good despite my failings.
That “things” don’t really mean too much to me anymore
But experiences do.
That some people will look me in the eye
And stab me in the back
But I will keep moving forward.
That in the end
The choices and responses I have are really
The only ones that matter.
That prejudice will always exist
And that I must check myself daily
To not get caught up in the fray.
That no matter how good I am to some people
Some are just incapable of reciprocation.
I must do good anyway.
That unlearning all of the preconceived notions
And judgmental doctrine about God & my worth
Will take a lifetime to completely get over.
That age and what society says about it
Are not in my favor as a woman.
I have learned
That I am free to be me
No matter what others think, no matter their opinion,
No matter their gossip.
It doesn’t matter.
The free me likes me the best.
The free me is able to look at others
More objectively and non judmentally
And love them in their freedom.
I have only to answer to me,
And to God.
I am without a shadow of a doubt
Convinced that He loves me
Despite the fallible me
I most often times see.
I have learned…
That rejection is survivable.
Even by a parent
That dogs are just children with fur
Who love unconditionally.
This life is meant to be shared-
With those less fortunate,
And that includes animals.
That politics can divide people,
And that is a travesty.
That running may not be the cure
Or answer for some people,
But it has kept me sane.
But most importantly
I have learned that
I have a contribution to make.
I matter to some
And for that
I will never apologize
For being me.