Hello my friends, followers, haters, and/or admirers!

I realized my last post was in May, one month after Boston Marathon. So much has happened since then, I don’t even know where to begin. So I’ll start with running. Yes, running- my drug, my therapy, my go to for solving life’s problems, and my absolute favorite thing to do. Yes FAVORITE thing to do! If I have a choice between many options, I will always choose running!

I had registered for a half marathon in May. Actually, I had won the entry for winning my age group for this same run last September. Unfortunately, I had an injury that prevented me from running this race. Stupid, clumsy me jammed my foot into the leg of the bed trying to rush to shut an open window during a rainstorm. Needless to say, the leg didn’t move! So broken third toe on right foot became my injury that side lined me for about 6 weeks and prevented me from doing this run. I felt extremely bad about this because I had invited a friend to run it with me & now I couldn’t do it. Most people would understand, but I was put to the test that day and I left there bewildered as to why a true friend would test me like that. Oh well, I had an absolute BLAST cheering on all of the 5k peeps who came through. I even met a runchat friend & caught up with another friend from previous races. Nursing injuries is hard when you can’t do what you love most-run!

As my injury improved, I was able to start running again and start training for the Nebraska State Fair marathon I registered for coming up on August 29. It felt good being able to get out there again and do what I now feel that I was born to do. Runs were slow and gradual, but I never gave up. During this time, I also gave my eldest son up to a wonderful woman in marriage. It was a joyous time as the two became one.

Mother/Son dance
Mother/Son dance

I’m pretty sure I have the BEST sons in the world! It was even more special because a special friend was able to attend with me and was a great help in setting up and with photos.

When does a special friend become MORE than a friend? I wish I knew. All I know is that you can’t make/force people to believe you, trust you, and open themselves up to you. All you can do is to be yourself and hope for the best. Unfortunately, too many times, there is GREAT misunderstanding and often the people you love the most, hurt you the most. There is a phrase in psychology that states, “If you spot it, you’ve got it.” Which basically means, you choose to point out & hate in others what you yourself possess.  It is ok to point out that fault in others, but many do not want to look at and admit that they have that same fault. When you do point it out to them, you are labeled as “mean” and a terrible person!

July 4th was a great day as I PR’d a “Four on the 4th” race and took 3rd in my age group. I had been doing more running with the Sunday running group and it helped me tremendously to try to keep up with the “fast” guys. Unfortunately, I am unable to run with them every week because I have a Sunday work commitment at my job. But my runs are consistent and very much a part of my life. Seldom do I go more than 2 days w/o a run. It is all just discipline really. I set my alarm a little earlier on days that I work and get on the treadmill. It really has improved my attitude and set the tone for my day.

So much in life is out of our control. Take the news for instance. They THRIVE on negativity and sensationalism. Some sadly, is truth. My heart hurt when the Bill Cosby ordeal came to light. One more reason not to put your hope/faith in people. People will let you down EVERY time. Even the ones who you really believe never will.

As summer is winding down, it is hard for me to believe that school will be starting soon for many. Not having school age children is kind of a weird feeling sometimes when I see all of the school supplies in the stores. The end of summer was always a bittersweet time.

My Kansas City Royals have been doing great, yet at this writing they are in a slump of sorts and have now lost 4 games in a row. It really doesn’t matter as they have been part of my life since I was a kid. Some of my fondest memories are going out to the stadium and/or listening to a game on the radio as I drifted off to sleep. Actually it was my dad who did the listening, I just tailgated!

Forever Fan
Forever Fan

So as time goes on, and as I have lived, loved, learned, and lost, I have decided that the most important person to take care of is me. Kind of like how they instruct parents on an airplane to put the oxygen on themselves first so they are able to take care of their children. My mental health is important. My physical health is important. My spiritual health is important. For goodness sakes, I know all of this-I’m a nurse!  Caregivers and those who care deeply are often the worst at taking care of themselves.

So the other day, I decided to splurge and go get a gel manicure. I had never had a manicure in my life. The Asian lady was wonderful and she talked me into a pedicure (with my UGLY runners toes)! It was delightful and I can’t believe I have waited 51 years to be pampered like that!  I have historically always been the one who wants to do the pampering. So now I have Kansas City Royals blue fingernails & toenails. This may become my new splurge. What have you denied yourself because of splurging on others? You are worth it. Don’t deny yourself any longer. Especially you single working women/mothers. Take care of you and you will be a better person for it. Don’t let ANYONE make you feel inferior. You are special and important no matter what cutting remarks others say about you, or what they choose to believe. Every run makes me believe this more. What empowers you?

I always said I had this hidden reservoir of strength and power, and it came from running.”

–Sugar Ray Leonard

Until We Meet Again,

Stephanie

2 thoughts on “I’m Back

  1. So glad to see you back. Do you think this time you can stick around though, no more month long breaks. Your royals are doing pretty good, but my pirates are looking better, lol. Congrats on your 4th of July race and good luck with your training.

    1. Thanks Shaun. I don’t know where the time goes & writer’s block gets me sometimes. However, just sitting down & letting it flow w/o too much thought seems to be the best thing to do. P.S. Go Royals!

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